Now (above)
Then (below)
As you can see from the pictures they have all grown--A LOT! Sarah and Lucy are walking and most of the time running all over the place. Emily is catching up and her PT seems to be helping. Even though she doesn't walk she gets around just fine and is quite the climber.
Anna is even more like herself--I think that is the best way to put it. She is funny, sweet, dramatic, emotional, silly, attention seeking, demanding, bosy, helpful, and fun. She only wants to wear dresses now and loves all things girly. At the same time though she plays in the dirt. She has quite the imagination.
Now for me...a year ago my mom was getting ready to leave and I was faced with this new life on my own. I was scared and sad, but trying to be greatful for all that we had. I knew I wanted to graduate at some point, but it seemed more and more like a pipedream. I put on a good face, few people knew how out of control life seemed for me. It wasn't like I was never happy, I just felt so stuck.
Fast forward to now. I am tired and exhausted and often frustrated, but I am also enjoying my girls. I have started work on my dissertation and have loved meeting other moms who had preemies and multiples. I still teach online and will be teaching one class in the fall. I have good and bad days, but overall I have come to see this as my/our life. Very rarely do I go back and imagine how things could have been. Instead I marvel at how things are. I have learned that I have to get away to do my best work as well as for my own sanity. I am just not one of those moms who can be home all day every day.
I have thought a lot the last year and learned a lot and heard a lot from others, and that is why I want to blog, so I can share that.
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